Renovation

I've been  busy y'all!! We've been finishing part of our attic to create a new bedroom for Jada.

It's so much work! I've fallen behind on my blog and lots of other things since we started. Cause let's face it.... life still has to happen even though we're adding more work into the same amount of time. It's a struggle trying to organize our priorities during all this.

I was looking around this morning at our living room in such disarray and thought about my life....my heart....my time with Jesus each day. I was thinking how this renovation has caused such a mess in other parts of my life and has distracted me and has basically just caused me to get my attitude out of adjustment more times than one..... but, I know that once we are done it will all be worth it!

We have one little 8 year old princess who is thrilled to get her new room but she's also been a little upset cause it's taking longer than expected. So, since Greg can't take anymore time off work right now and we just can't live with chest of drawers and bookcases filling our living room floors and dining room table we've decided to call in an expert. We have someone coming in soon to give us an estimate.

And that's when I started thinking about how many times have I tried to do things on my own...not having a clue as to how it do it. But, I like to be in control so I want to do it by myself. But God's just waiting the whole time for me to realize I need Him to take control. He knows better than me...at everything. Why don't I just start with Him from the beginning? I've been a Christian for many, many years but that's still one thing, among many others, that is taking me more time to learn. I'm making progress but I'm not there yet. Thank God for grace and forgiveness!! He simply amazes me at how many times He's there waiting on me to just ask for His help.

So in addition to asking for help this renovation has caused me to question other things... like what in my own life needs renovation? Is it my perspective in a particular situation? Extra love for that special person who is so unlovable? Is it for my heart to be more kind, generous, gentle with my words AND actions? For my daily time with God to be more about Him and less about me? I think all these plus a few hundred more should be on God's list of renovations in my life and as hard as it may be to get through I know that those renovations will produce a harvest of who God wants me to be and less of who I think I should be!

That reminds me of a song that blesses me every time I hear it. It's by Mercy Me. You can listen to it Here

But here's the lyrics that speak to me-

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Because don't we want God to come to our rescue and deliver us from something...and we want it to happen quickly? But God has a plan while in that pit to mold us, shape us, change us. And to become that person it might take pain, struggle, hard times, loss, failure. But, God doesn't do that cause He's a mean God. It's because He loves us more than we could ever imagine and He sees something in us that we could never see in ourselves, and because He wants to prove to us how amazing, faithful, loving, gentle, kind, just, and compassionate He is.... I could go on about how Great He is but I'll end with these words from the same song-

Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty!