Sunday morning. Sunday nights. Wednesday nights. GA's. VBS and whatever else was going on.
It's really the way I just knew life to be. My folks walked the talk. No, they weren't perfect but they loved Jesus!!
I got saved when I was 5. I know lots of people would question a 5 year old's mind but I remember, vividly, knowing I needed someone greater than my little self. I understood that a man named Jesus died for me.
Somewhere over the years I just lost that desire to please God and started wanting what I wanted....like this life was about me or something.
Don't we all think that at times.... either sometimes or the all the time.
So, for a few years I lived it up. I did anything and everything that went totally against what I was taught. Anyone who remembers me from high school and the few years after knows who I was. I was not a good girl. I wasn't even nice to people.
Satan was laughing while holding me tight. I was his puppet.
Fast forward many years.....
Sitting here today I'm beyond grateful for all those ignorant choices. They proved to me that there is no life worth living outside God's plan. They proved to me that God is amazing and faithful for never giving up on me. He loved me then just as He loves me now. I went no where beyond His reach. I see evidence of that now. I don't know how I made it out of those years alive!! It was only by His grace!
But now what? How did I do the "Christian life?" I always grew up hearing people say things like,
"Just let God have control"
"Don't worry, God's got it"
"Lean on God"
And even though I had head knowledge of that I didn't know in my heart how that was suppose to work.
Until now.....and I'm all giddy with excitement because I finally get it!! It's really one of those things you can't explain...like a parents love. You cannot ever explain that. It's something only learned by having a child.
God's understanding is exactly like that. You have to get deep in His word and seek Him... daily.
My whole spiritual journey has been something like a yo-yo and praise God He has bigger plans for me than just being a yo-yo!! He's been taking me on this amazing journey and placing His word, people and amazing books in my path that just keep pushing me to be who He has planned for me!
If you feel like a yo-yo, I encourage you to get in His word and be consistent and seek Him even when you don't feel like!! He's faithful and He will come through! He WILL lead you. He DOES have whatever you're going through. And He WILL unlock the mysteries of who He is and how He works!!
If you have amazing God stories please share them!! It's always amazing to talk about how amazing He is!!
Proverbs 2:1-11
My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
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